Daily

It has been months since I have the self realization of what I feel for you.  I know you know what I feel in my mind and heart contrary to the physical distance, but my heart tells me to love you.  On the other hand my head tells me it is not true.  You have not seeked me, and therefore I have every right to understand on how you are not a part of my marital future.  My happiness relies solely on leading an adequate life with the man who is bound towards my path.  If however, we do not run into each other's life path, I know it has been rearranged by God.  The love I have for you is not something I can force on you or neither can I suppress my love I contain in my heart from you.  Neither of the two forces is beyond my total control. I love you.  We can both look back at this point in our lives, years down the road and say we waited for each other as long as our strengths could forbode and in the end, the verdict is that we cannot accomplish what is not a part of God's divine plan for us, to have a life together as a spouse.

I love you, and I always have since I first laid eyes on you.

Terry

David

These past few weeks, I am starting to feel a strong increase about thoughts of david golshan, and I dont know why either.  It is just this feeling I get just out of the blue that I feel I am still in love with david still and that something could happen in the future with me and him.  I know that it will never be with him, because he has decided to stop talking to me in the first place.  I dont know why I would think that i would ever have a chance with someone like him in my lifetime.  But still everyday I feel like something is in the works with me and this man I have never met in real life.  I will wait to see what will happen with me and him.  I have spoken to my psychic about me and him and I am in shock at what they have told me about him.  I just cant believe it, not until it happens between me and him. It is something beyond me.  Why do I feel I love you even more, even though I know you don't want to pursue anything with me?  Any person would want to just move on in this situation, but why do I feel like I am now in this waiting period?  Am I waiting for you to come into my life?  Can this really be?  If this did ever come true, which would be beyond my wildest imagination, I would be so happy beyond words can describe.

Kindle

I recently bought an amazon kindle back a few months ago.  I'm glad I made that choice, because there are so many cool options I can utilize with the ebook reader.  It has amazon prime, which I regret I have not fully taken advantage of.  I can instantly buy books from amazon and get it withing a snap of my fingers onto my reader.  I think it is so awesome, I am definitely in for a treat this christmas.

Alexander the Great

From the moment Alexander laid eyes upon Roxanne, he condescended himself and married her above and among all his peers.

The romance of Alexander and Roxanne is so heartbreaking when I think about it.  It reminds so much of the relationship I had with John, who was greek, and myself who was asian.  I feel like I will always love John regardless he has found someone else or not.  And I can feel that John will always love me in the same gratitude and fashion as well.

psychic

This year I caught on to a new hobby, and a quite expensive but worth the time although.  I've been talking to psychics online about a couple of my  situations this year.  Most of the readers were very accurate.  I asked some questions about David Golshan, and I am surprised at what the reader has said about him.  I will wait to see what will take place in the future regarding this matter.  I wrote a note to myself on facebook about him, and I saved a copy of it as well.

Ive been thinking about David golshan a lot recently and I dont know why either. I wonder right now does he think about me. I saved all the emails we shared ever since last year. I cant forget him. His face is so vividly in my mind. I wonder if he still has my number I wish he would pick up the phone and call me this very minute. God please don't tell me that this is happening to me again. Even though I may feel its wrong to feel this way about him I feel that my destiny is intertwined with David in some way which has not appeared before my eyes or has unraveled towards me. Most importantly I feel and believe in my heart that what I feel about him is genuine and humane. I dont love him for who he is but for what person he is already predetermined to be in this short span of seconds we call life. I love him because he is gods creation. He is a living man bound towards God regulations and Justice as well as I and the entire world I call earth. Oh love of the universe, tonight I try to fall asleep while separating your image from my mind. If I only achieved such task put forth there is no extent beyond my forbidden passion reaches toward you. You are a man and I am the woman. The sun rises in the west coast and warms my thought of you breathing the same air I breathe. How can I describe how I feel about you. Where can I find someone comparable to you. I send my heartbeat to you in a pure box no matter where you are I hope it reaches you. And when you have opened my pure box you will discover the breadth of my enigma. Is it possible for a canary to flap its wings and flyaway to your window. Tonight I send you my message of love. You are a man and I am a woman.

Posting

It feels like an ancient ritual to be posting again on blogger.  But then again I just want to start off fresh anew now were going to be in 2012.  Work was alright, but it could be better due to a few customer that just irk me really bad.  But thats life I just have to deal with it.  Ohh, I am so looking forward to moving to Los Angeles California really soon.  I can't wait to start my life out there, I think it will be so much better.  In the meantime I want to work on my degree in long term living online.  The tuition itself is so affordable, and so I would be loosing out on a bargain if I were to pass this career degree up.